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Friday, February 21st, 2003
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LJ has been fucked over for a while.
Eh, I think I'm depressed again o_o;
Last night Toto hurt his leg some how, I dont know,
he didnt do anything crazy. Tomorrow I'm taking him
outside in the snow tomorrow, even though he hates
it. I might buy him a rain coat.
Today I went to Kathleens house. It was okay. Alec came
Too. We ate pizza, watched Donnie Darko, and Harry
Potter in Spanish. Then we went outside in the snow, and to
say the least, my feet are finally back to their normal color.
Hm, I suppose I should mention what I've been up to on my own.
So the other night I tried burning myself around eleven at night. I went in
the shower and had the hot water up far as it could go. It didnt work
Cause after a while my water gets cold, though some skin managed
to peal off. Then I slammed my toes against the door and started bleeding to death. o_o;.. Earlier that day I joined a SL, but I already got kicked out cause
apparently everyone cant handle my character, so, Theres another thing
I failed at that can go in the book.
Ciao Bella.
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Wednesday, February 19th, 2003
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Monday, February 17th, 2003
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Today I was SUPPOSE to watch digimon. My mom's so fucking stupid.
6:30am
Mom: "Wake up, Pokemon is on"
Me: "Mmn"
8:00am
Me: -scream- MOOOOOOOOOOOM.
Her: "What"
Me: "YOU DID NOT WAKE ME UP"
Her: "Yes I did."
Me: "DID MY EYES OPEN?!"
Her: "I dunno"
..Rrrr. It was the GOOD episode too. So today I've decided not to talk to her. I think I'm going to Kathleens house anyways. Alright. Gotta go READ about the stupid fucking EPISODE I MISSED.
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Sunday, February 16th, 2003
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Friday, February 14th, 2003
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Heath Ledger: You like them with a drop dead
gorgeous smile, cute accent and from the Land
Down Under.
Which guy are you destined to have sex with?
brought to you by Quizilla
Happy Valentines Day!
Dave's coming over today. huff. Dustin hasn't been on, though.
I've been talking to Kim since 8:30 in the morning. We talked
About Digimon, to making a story about all our teachers, to Joe, to
This annoying girl in our grade. Its strange. She's beginning to
feel comfortable talking to me again. Last year we talked all the
time, this year not so much, but gradually, you know. She glomped
me on Thursday x__x; It was slightly scary. Bleh. Not much of
an Update. I was talking to Barbuzzi today. < One of Rachel's friends>
He's pretty cool.
: Happy Valentines day!
: u 2
: lol, i hate this holiday, its overrated
: i know really
: got a Valentine?
: no u
: I'm not sure..but still
: everyone just wants a Valentine for a stupid holiday, when they dont even like the person, and all you get out of it is stale candy and a stupid stuffed animal
: ya
..or maybe a flower that dies after three hours
: ya really
Funfun.
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Wednesday, February 12th, 2003
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I was talking to Dave earlier, he said he wants to come over tomorrow. Hmph. Fine.
We were talking online, its almost safe to say scary. We're so close now.
We were talking about this girl, Amanda. Eh, she thinks she's a 7ft tall black man, worse then me.
Him: "I mean, she looked me in the eye and said she wanted me to kill myself"
Reminds me of something x__x;
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Monday, February 10th, 2003
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Yeah, so I guess Owen's dead.
I'm not gonna talk about it much though, I guess.
Chemistry was fun, I saw things. When I was
driving I was seeing things. A fence turned into a deer,
and a puddle turned into a cat. Funfun.
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Sunday, February 9th, 2003
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Wow, that was scary.
I put eyeliner on today xD ROFL.
Mom: "Take that off, you look like a clown"
Dad: "Why dont you leave him alone ?"
Mom: "Fuck you"
Dad: "Worry about yourself."
Mom: "Go to hell"
Dad: "Your a stupid bitch, you know that?"
Mom: "I dont want people laughing at him"
Dad: "YOUR the only one starting"
Mom: "EVERYONE ELSE HAS NORMAL KIDS, I HAVE TO HAVE A FUCKING CLOWN"
And now their fighting about food, and burning pans, and boiling maceroni. I do feel bad for mom though, cause when dad says mean things to her she takes it way too personally. She cries too cometimes. Oh well. Rachel and Vanessa will be here soon. They dont care. feh. I colored my nails black once, and Rachel comlimented it. I dont know why mom always has to compare me to the other "normal" kids, but man, whats NORMAL? Jocks, preps, goths, loners, what?!
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Saturday, February 8th, 2003
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Well, my mom just screamed at the top of her lungs at me!
Great. Man. I wish I had a different family. I hate saying it,
but I do. But I wish she wasnt such a bitch.
Her: "GET THE BIRD OUT OF YOUR BEDROOM"
Me: "Stop screaming and I will"
Her: "NOW."
Me: "When you stop screaming"
Her: "YOUR A FUCKING LITTLE BASTARD. I'LL KILL IT"
Me: "If you were the bird, I dont think you'd wanna hear screaming,
from a total bitch"
Then she started screaming at me and whatnot. I dont know. Believe it
Or not. I try being a good kid, I try getting good grads, and I try being nice
but it never works out.
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I havent relaly UPDATED updated, but..yeah I have.
Ok. Fine. But a lot of major things happened that I
Havent posted.
My aunts baby Isabella died. Yeah. She was four months pregnant
and she was leaking those fluids around the baby. She gave birth to
it. They said she looked like my uncle, like she was a little angel. this
is the second baby they've lost.
Next, Owen decided he's going back to Marcus, apparently. Good.
Their both pieces of shit. I dont give a fuck. I didnt need someone
like Owen, I dont need anyone really. I'd rather be alone. Sure, I'm
young and everything, but man. Nothing good comes out of love.
Seriously. And..heh. Did I mention ?
I'm not a virgin anymore.
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| Mood: |  depressed. |
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Well. Today Buddy beat the fuck out of Pikachu.
She's all bloody and a lot of her feathers are missing.
I dont wanna' bother her, cause I know shes in pain,
and I know she hates me. So dealing with her will
more then likely stress her out..though I might clean
her later, like I said, shes all bloodied up.
Oh, yeah,
Dave slept over last night, whatever. May as well add
that.
Tomorrow the brats are coming over. Thank
God I can actually drive. Maybe I'll take them to the
mall and pay someone to kidnap them.
Hmm, I met this kid, Dustin, a while ago, he's fairly
nice, at least he was last night. He's real understanding
but today he was being kind've obnoxious. Hm. Everyone's
beginning to piss me off now. I dont care. No more mister
nice guy. To anyone, that is.
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Friday, February 7th, 2003
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| Time: | 8:58 pm. |
| Mood: | lonely. |
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Heh. I was thinking.
you know how my brother died, right ?
Right when I was getting close to him.
And right when I was getting close with
Joey, he died, right ? And everytime I get
really attached to an animal it dies. Heh.
We were reading Edger Allen Poe. We
talked about "How everything he got close
to died in the end." Pretty funny, huh ? Heh.
I've really been thinking about taking my life though,
seriously. Everyone always gets pissy at me,
cause they dont understand me. God. My best
"friend" probably thinks I'm a lunitac, and the only
Person in my family who likes me is a 12 year old.
I've got nothing to live for. I dont make anyone
happy, I dont ..God. I dont do anything. I just sit here
and waste away all day.
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Yeah.
Snow day! Finally.
I needed that one. Uh.
Donnie Darko is on at 12:00 HBO2 today. Man.
I can watch that movie three times every day..And
I'd still fucking love it. Its crazy. Usually after I watch
a movie twice in the same year I start ripping my hair
out. So. :B Lori had better get her ass on, Or I'll seriously
be pissed at her this time x_x cause Donnie Darko's on! Yeah.
Ciao Bella
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Thursday, February 6th, 2003
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Man.
Today Kim started crying, cause Dave, and
the stupid fucking Donkey was bothering her.
You know ? Dave's a real nice person, when
He's not trying to impress the fat fucks. I'm
gonna have one hell of a talk with the both of them.
I mean, sure. Kim's not the sexiest person alive, and shes
no cheerleader, but is there any need to get her
in trouble cause she's different? Honestly.
Kim has this little cow thing. Dave and the fat
fucker kept squeezing it, and making it moo
during class. And she got it taken away, and yelled at,
she she cried. She had to go to guidance and explain everyhing
I mean, she's real sensative..so..
Man. Once they get online - once Dave does..
I'm gonna use my reverse psychology skill, and watch
him appologize to Kim tomorrow. I couldnt give two shits
about that fat, fucking slob. God. I hope he eats himself to death.
Fat fucker.
I'll IM him, though, but I wont do shit to him at school. He might
fucking sit on me tomorrow and I'll get lost up in his anal pores.
The fat fucker.
Ciao Bella
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Tuesday, February 4th, 2003
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School was..okay, today.
Kathleen was there, all we did was talk
about Donnie Darko. x_x; It was fun. Now
I call her Donnie, and she calls me frank.
She wrote me the funniest note, I gotta post
it xD .. -ahem-
"Frank,
I'm trapped in mrs bonifaces room! Why god? Why?!
I keep hoping you'll burst in the door in a bunny suit
with ham, eggs, and cheese on a badle, with apple
juice. Then of course, I have to shoot you in the eye
and scream THE BUNNY MADE ME DO IT..or not.
< Then she started talking about the movie >. I listened
to Mad World a billion times, and cried and cried. Man.
This sucks. BRING ME MY FOOD YOU STUPID RABBIT.
Love, Donnie "
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Sunday, February 2nd, 2003
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| Time: | 11:21 am. |
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Lets see..
Rachel woke me up today around 10:30.
I dont mind her so much anymore, Vanessa's
Pretty okay too, when shes not killing Rachel.
Its scary, though. I was yelling at this chinese
Girl for bothering Rachel, and afterwards
I hate doing it, cause all her little friends
build like, shrines dedicated to me, for no reason.
Rachel tells me how they think I'm the greatest
Person in the world, and her little friends keep IMing
me, its pretty annoying, but, yeah. ..Lets see.
I drove yesterday ^^ And the only bad thing was, I hit the curb.
Yeahh..not much goin' on this weekend, really.
At least Vacation is on the way.
They need to put Donnie Darko on TV more often,
Or else I might go driving today, and but the
damn tape, or the CD. But I heard there isn't any
CD for Donnie Darko, so I might just ask Kat to burn the
songs off Kazaa or whatever. So. :B I get to go out and buy
a blank tape. Maybe I could convince my dad into getting me
a new animal too.. :D
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